Now?

A few of my friends have been telling me to make a public blog...guess there's no better time than now.

Today I was sitting in class and my professor goes off on a girl who was clearly not paying attention. He tells her, "these are the most important days of your life! You are shaping your future and you are paying $40,000 for an education..." yada yada yada. We have all heard it before. We have all heard our parents or our teachers place a monetary value on our education as opposed to speaking for educations sake. And we have all heard that the days we spend in school are the most important of our lives. But is this really true? Do I stop learning once I leave school? No. Is the most important stuff I learn the stuff I learn in school? Not necessarily. Probably not. Then are these really THE most important days of my life?

We are told to seize the day. What day though? Today? Tomorrow? If I believe that the decisions I make NOW shape my life, is today's "now" any more important and life altering that yesterday's "now?" Do the decisions I make tomorrow make more of a difference to my life that the actions I perform today? Does one decision or action truly have the ability to completely doom a life with its consequences? Can one decision or action turn around a life all on its own? It's scary to think that if one decision can doom you, then you live life in a constant fear of making that wrong choice or doing that wrong thing. Can one instant ruin your whole life? Can one more instant fix it?

I guess I try to look at things from a cyclical standpoint. No one thing you do can stop you from living the life you want because most people are inclined to give second chances. So then its all a matter of whether you are willing to change--to learn. And I DON'T mean learn from the school standpoint--not what you are paying your 40,000 for--but rather are you willing to stop making the decisions and doing the things that are standing in your way? Because if you are then I feel like even if you have fallen far, a complete turnaround, if one commits to it fully and over a long period of time, shows people that you have changed. That you are willing to do what it takes to put your life back on track and keep it there. I don't believe that one is ever doomed. We make our own decisions, nobody makes them for us.

Wow this kinda got away from where I originally started it. Oh well.

Own up to who you are and the things you do and if they aren't actions and decisions you are proud of, change so that they are. Thats how I feel one achieves what he or she wants in life. You have to have the willpower because nobody will walk you through it all holding your hand. But hey. Just my thoughts.

Radhi