Hello old friend

So it has been a while...

It has been brought to my attention recently that I have neglected this blog for quite some time. I can cite all sorts of things saying that "I got really busy" or "I had more important stuff going on," but the fact of the matter is that I really just forgot. I forgot that I have this old friend here for me that I can write to and say everything I feel-and say it truly-and I will not be judged for it. I forgot that pouring out my feelings into my writing has so often helped me deal with those emotions. It is funny how we forget about things when we seem not to need them or we aren't being constantly reminded of them. It is easy to befriend someone you see every day but how much do you remember that person when they are no longer such a presence in your life? I know I am the worst offender. It's not that I use people - I don't and I never will - but rather that I don't actively try to stay in touch. So when people don't try with me the connection is lost.

Writing this actually makes me sad. I know I've said it before but I am a firm believer in the statement that everyone you meet leaves a mark on your existence, whether trivial or pivotal, that will in some way influence who you are. I feel like I have lost touch with many of the people who have made those pivotal differences in me. So this is my challenge to myself: as I wrap up my senior year I will be reconnecting with old friends who I haven't spoken to in a while but want to keep around in my life. Beyond that, I am going to make sure that when I graduate I do not fall into my old ways but keep close the friends I hold dear in my heart, even if physically we are separated. I urge everyone to take a few days and think on the relationships they have had in the past that changed them for the better. Who was the person? What did they mean to you? Are you still in touch? If not, I challenge you to reconnect with him or her.

Just my thoughts
Radhi